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Since I got back, I have been commented on various things by various kind of people. From my close friends, friends that I seldom see but keep good relation with, even to the people that just see me once or twice a year. Some of the things they commented..

1. Why do you think in English, and not Indonesian?
Not in the way of thinking kind of way, but more like...when I'm talking to myself, or counting, or...thinking. I do it in English.
I don't know why I do that. Out of a habit probably? What is funny is that, one of the friend that I seldom see but keep good relation with said that I'm snob because I think in English. It's not that at all. I just do. Probably because most of the information I read, or hear, are in English, so it became a habit for me.

2. Why do you know what A is in Japanese and not Indonesian, and other times you know what B is in French and not in Indonesian?
Once again, I don't know. But I found there are some words that I know in Japanese, or French, or German, or English, that could not be translated easily in Indonesian. As in...when I find to find the word in Indonesian, I end up explaining the word in two words or more.

3. Why are you so uptight? This is Indonesia, not Europe, forget the rules.
THIS. I have to tell you, is the most annoying of all. I know that this is Indonesia. But does that really mean that we can't follow the rules when it's not convenient to us? I don't even think that rules are supposed to be convenient. I know it makes me look like I'm too uptight, but who cares? I'm not the one breaking the rules when it's not convenient for me. I don't care what people say, I don't think it's a bad thing to do, so I'm going to try to keep the behavior.

Today, I met someone who -more or less- is as uptight as me.
Kinda surprised, there's actually someone like that here, in Indonesia. I know there's bound to be someone, but I just never met any. And that's what makes me so happy and surprise to see one. My friends said that he looks weird. I didn't comment. So what? I'm probably called weird too by them when I'm not around. Or by other people.

I might be different. I don't mind. I'm not doing anything wrong.